The Here And Now

I’m always amazed at how a messy and difficult situation or time can be turned into good. How brokenness can be turned into a beautiful thing.

This isn’t always the case though, I get that. I’ve walked both roads.

But I believe the intention, God’s intention, is to turn situations into something that is Grace and Glory filled – something that will help us move on.

This past season, as hard as it has been, has opened my eyes to see how things can turn around. How ‘God works all things out for the good of those who love Him, and who have been called according to His purpose.’  Rom 8:28.  It has allowed me to see how one persons struggle and heartbreak, can change and affect many others around them.

Lately, I’ve been able to see my own children understand, talk about and see this as well. They too, have wondered why mommy has (and had) to have surgery,  why I’m always in pain and why our next baby won’t come from my womb, and possibly leave us one day.  They too have walked through the hard. But  now we get to explain to them how comfort works. How we can pick ourselves up and continue on to serve others. How we are called to live out the Gospel hands on by relying on His strength while we are weak!

Sophia looking out

They get to see that life is not always easy, it’s not always the way we want it, but …..

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.  2 Cor 1: 3,4

I often think about the little ones who will enter our home soon.   I wonder if……..        They are born yet?, do they have siblings?, what colour hair will they have?, boy or girl? and….. what is their situation like right now?

~ Because I guarantee it’s a broken one.

Our children are wondering these things too. This child, these children aren’t even here yet, but we talk about them as if they are. We are preparing for them as if they are ours and we will love them unconditionally.

~Because I have been comforted, I will comfort others. ~

I wonder how long we will have this little baby, and how many trials they will have to endure. I wonder if we will be the ones to see first smiles, first steps or first words, and I wonder if we will be privileged to have them for 1 month,  1 year or …… forever?

No matter what, we will comfort, we will look after and we will love.

I’m not going to focus on the things I thought would be, but I am determined to focus on the things that I (we) can do right here and right now.

Until next time …

~ Kait

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