Earlier this week, I had the privilege of sharing the beginning of my story in this season of my life. This was both terrifying and freeing all at the same time. If you missed it, please feel free to read it here.
Hope is shared in part 2, please enjoy! ……
~ There comes a time in one’s life, where you just have to stop.
In the midst of this thing called life, where busyness rules, chaos is rampant and feelings, emotions and circumstances seem to take over; we need to stop.
Stopping means you can go into your quiet place, close your eyes, take a deep breath and let the stirring of your heart settle in His stillness.
In the stillness, there is such a beautiful opportunity for the breath of God to breathe over you. And in a moment, He can give you a new perspective and a sense of peace.
Over a year ago, after hearing crushing news, I needed to do just this….. and I continue to do this.
Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Psalm 62:5
A sweet new perspective and an encouraging peace came upon me. I allowed God to move in the stillness, and He did.
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10
This didn’t happen overnight, please don’t get me wrong. This didn’t even happen over weeks or months. But it has been happening over time as I allow Him to quietly speak, slowly move and comfort me.
I was reminded of all the MANY times where God came through, and when God moved in our lives, and as faithful as He is, I knew He would do it again.
When I think of the situations that we’ve walked through (marriage trouble, health issues, financial trouble, disappointment etc……) I am thankful to say that God has met me in my darkest moments and walked us through each and every one of them. I am confident that He is doing it again!
~ I believe this for YOUR darkest moments too!
My husband and I talked long and hard about growing our family, and how we can be used in a great way. There was obviously a reason why I had such a clear vision about more children, but didn’t know how to go about it now.
As sad as I was about another child not coming from my womb, (and believe me, I still have my times where I need to cry it out!) we started talking about foster and orphan care, and the beautiful thought that we can have children coming to us from other places.
~ Hope started to fill my heart again
Maybe the vision I have had for years about a fifth child was from God! …… just not the way I thought it would be. But, how many know that ‘ Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand.’ Prov. 19:21
Over many years, I have often thought about and been very open to adoption, but in all honesty, I was quite closed to the thought of foster care.
There was no way I was bringing in a precious child whom we will fall in love with, only to have them leave, and us left feeling broken.
But I have to tell you, God won’t give up on you and he will work on you to fulfil a purpose. The more we looked into orphan care and fostering, the more my heart was broken in a different way.
~ a beautiful way
WE could be used to change a life, even if it’s for a portion of that life!
As I began to soften, the thought of foster care became more inviting, and the more we looked into it, my heart started to heal and I fell in love with the thought. My heart was made for loving, and our arms were meant to be held wide open to whom ever needs to come our way.
I am choosing to use my brokenness to bring wholeness to others. Sometimes, our brokenness will be changed into a thing of beauty.
A very long story short….. I am now pleased and VERY honoured to say that we will be receiving our first foster placement by next month!
Yes, a heart can break…….but God is always the ultimate healer.
Until next post…..